Ever mentioned I like another girl now? (Yea changed after 2 years.) let's say I haven't, but of course, she has to be older than me again; but only one year this time.
I met her at a cadet summer camp (always cadet), for the power pilot scholarship, a 7 week course.
I am terrible with clues or interactions with humans in general; I didn't get that she liked me either, which was made pretty obvious by her friends. Of course I was interested in her, too, but being in cadets really restricts what I would do. I didn't really want to get RTU'd for their so called "fratting" or something like that, so I kept my distance.
For the first few weeks I understood that she likes me, and so I try talking to her but not spill any of my feelings over. And I guess she thinks I hate her. So the last 2 weeks or so I just kinda want her to get that the feeling is rather mutual.
Unfortunately, she was RTU'd anyways. And I kinda hate myself for that; I only offered but never persistently tried to help her out. She was the only one that failed ground, and I feel absolutely terrible (this has nothing to do with the fact that I like her).
So after I went home, I gathered all my strength and bravery inside me, even the bits I used to eat, to ask her out.
I wasn't surprised, for whatever reason, that she said no. She said she was busy preparing for uni; be it an excuse or not, it really makes no difference to me. I take people's word, because I trust them; so pretty much whatever you tell me is whatever I believe. I don't bother processing it in my brain, unless it's fairly obvious.
And you know, a normal guy would've probably tried a few times. Call me a chicken or useless piece of shit or whatever you want, I've pretty much given up. Completely.
Yes I talk to her, I ask about her daily lives, but I don't think she's interested anymore. I'm terrible at dealing with people or with words, much like my sister, and I've probably got her pretty unhappy by saying stuff she doesn't want to hear for whatever reason a few times. So really, I'm just gonna stop. I'm a pussy and I know.
But well, what can I do. (Ask her out again maybe? Dumb shit)
On the bright ish side, my sister came visiting from America; and I also got my private pilots license. So now I can fly planes. I really just enjoy flying since I can get away from people, I'm not exactly the social type of person, but I'm not anti-social either... More like semi anti social. (Lmao)
So PPL was the big achievement for me during the summer. How did your summer go? What did you do?
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