2014年1月29日 星期三

29 Jan, 2013

Just a really short entry that i wanna write. 

I've waited. I'm still waiting. Everyday I want you to break up but I don't at the same time. I'm conflicted, I don't know what I want, other than you. 

I'm the out going - loner type. You were the only person who had ever gave me comfort. 

In your existance I can feel.... I can feel safety, I can feel honesty, I can feel happiness, I can feel gentleness...

You are one of a kind, only one to be so amazing. I am never a match for you, even my soul can feel that. 

But every part, physical and mental, just keeps attracting me. I just can't pull myself into how I want to feel... What can I do?

2014年1月24日 星期五

Jan 24, 2014

YHaven't written in a long time. Right now it's exam week... And honestly, I'm not too bright about them. I feel like I don't know what I am doing. My marks always drop dramatically to a 70, but took me until now to catch up to an 80. Not exactly smooth sailing. 

Things don't seem to go well in cadets either. They just changed the rules, stating that instead of "participating in the fitness test to pass the level", you must also pass ONLY the beep test. Sad thing is, I have excellence and gold in all other categories, but just beep test. I got a 43 (18 off from pass). So I trained for a month, and got 56. Let's hope another month of training will do it. I currently feel the need to throw up but I'm starving, too. 

Remember M. Yea, she wasn't exactly happy that I stop 5 b4 pass... I needa throw up.

But she talked to me. Yea I'm like the type of dumb fucking nerd that no one likes. Her bf is one lucky guy. 

And she bought mcdonalds... Let's hope I get one. 

The coming semester I have Calculus (AP, which we are already 1/2 done that course even though we still in Adv Func.), physics and chem 11, and lastly, 11 eng. I suck at English. I lived in HK for most of my life, so I'm actually surprised I got a 90 on literacy test... Well I'm not surprised about my mark.... Just ontario's average.

How are your exams and days going? Tell me a little! =)

Edit: aw no McDonald's =( got some fries doe