11 Oct, 2013

It's been at least 2 months since my last blog. I'll be honest, I was just busy gaming, and had a lot of thinking. 

First of all, I didn't finish my glider scholarship on time. However, I did finish it around... 1 Month later? I had a feeling, that the license will be my greatest achievement I will ever get. I switched schools this year, and I don't know anyone. I was scoring aces in math in my old school, but now I'm down in the 60s. I need that to be a 90... Especially that subject. Because I found who I wanna be. All because of the summer course. 

I've been flyin in the skies before I was even born. I flew in my mother's stomach (well, uterus) for a few times. Right after I was born, I flew another time to where my family was originally from, Hong Kong. Since then, I flew back and forth Canada and Hong Kong. I was always interested in how planes work, but never more than things like the Big Bang theory or space. As I flew in the glider, it felt like I'm back to where I'm supposed to be. Not on the ground, but in the air. As I looked up and see airliners fly by 3000' above my head (the airport I fly at is right at their base turn and final), I knew, I wanted to be in there. So if you hadn't figures it out yet, I wanna be a pilot. 

Why do I need to be good at math for a pilot? Well I don't really need to know how to do derivatives or stuff like that (or I think so), but calculating distance, track, and fuel and a lot more other stuff are essential to flying. 

Anyways, I've also been seeing M quite a lot, at least in cadets. Every time I see her I can't help but smile, as if she knew magic, and use it to move my muscles in my face. I think more about her everyday, but there's really nothing I can do. I just wish life ain't so cruel. Or maybe I'm just overly depressed and dramatic. Probably the second one. 

As I thought more about her, I think more about fate. (Yea here comes that fancy cheesy shit I know) I'm thinking, what am I supposed to be in this world, why am I in this world, and who is truly am I supposed to be with (<<<<< so duckingcheesy  for god sake). Ah ok let's stop here for this shit.....

But truly, I really wish I was her bf, even just for one hour. I would just like to know completely how she is. I know how she is, but only partially. I want to understand her, laugh with her.... 

How's your day?