I don't know what to do

Hey, so I'm back again. Today, I really feel like I don't know what I'm doin. I like a person who virtually I can never be together with; my teachers are awful and I'm not learning anything thus failing the courses (asian fail); I feel like people ignore me... but honestly, I feel like it wouldn't matter anymore if everyone just forgets about me and let me rot away in a hole... yet life doesn't just let you off the hook that easily.

I can't get her off my mind, it's extremely obvious to me that she's not interested in me at all, but my brain just keeps forcing me to pursue her. She's 2 years older than me, and this year is prob my last year seeing her. Why am I even so upset of her? I guess she's the first that I truly like from my heart? I'm not so sure.

Also, I'm looking to transfer schools. The current school is honestly horrible... the teachers can't teach, they are extremely bias; with the exact same answer (and i mean exact same), my friend got full mark, yet I only got half of it... Favourism(yea this ain't a word. but we all know what it means =)) is everywhere, and then they test you on grade 12 things even though we're only grade 10 and they never taught us any of those things.

I guess some of you just think I'm complaining the f*ck outta myself, my just needed to express myself... it eating me up inside. I know probably no one is going to read this, but at this point, I already feel much better. If anyone reads this out there... tell me what to do? I'm in a confused state... I don't want to live anymore... (aha i'm not gonna suicide.)

Good day.